In the last article, I talked about being brought up by extended family and then it being taken away from me. In this article, I am going to address exactly what happened, how it made me feel and how it still affects me today. For eight years, the most important years of a young child’sContinue reading “02 – How life was different”
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04 – Physical Abuse – Behind Closed Doors
The last article takes me to the age of twelve. I’m now starting to lack concentration in school and becoming a really angry child. I was in PE when I was told my foster sister had been to the school to find me. I managed to pass messages through this person who knew me fromContinue reading “04 – Physical Abuse – Behind Closed Doors”
05 – Aftermath Of Physical Abuse
Relaying from the article I posted earlier this is how that physical abuse affected me. I started to become a very angry child, didn’t want anyone close to me, because every time I got close to someone, I lost them. At the same time, I started lashing out. It was like I was being bulliedContinue reading “05 – Aftermath Of Physical Abuse”
08c – From Bad To Worse
Things began to go strange at nights when ‘the boys’ were settled. ‘The man’ would instigate games, saying it was to get to know each other. Although it quickly reached the point where he would want me and ‘his wife’ to do things. Was he serious? He was married to her. I was still aContinue reading “08c – From Bad To Worse”
08e – No words
This has been a difficult article to relive and contains content that people may find difficult, distressing or triggering. Carrying on from the last article … I couldn’t keep up at all. We got in the car and he went to kiss me. As I turned my head, he said: “You can only do thatContinue reading “08e – No words”
08f – A Few Steps Too Far
The court case continued for ‘the baby’, although one afternoon his wife phoned ‘the man’ and they planned to meet up and for his wife to stay the night. This gavep me some hope as when his wife was around he didn’t sexually touch me and we could see the baby again. It was aContinue reading “08f – A Few Steps Too Far”
09 – Back To my mums
After everything that had gone on, ‘the man’ made arrangements with my mum for me to come back. To hide the truth, a story that I met someone at the air show was made up and that’s where I met the boy who I had apparently slept with. Arrangements were made and the 22nd ofContinue reading “09 – Back To my mums”
12 – The Failings Of Our “Justice” System
From the moment where I got my criminal record, the next couple of years were hard. I volunteered at my daughter’s nursery and, when my DBS came back, I was still on a suspended sentence so they were unable to allow me to continue. I declared my record, but until my suspended sentence had endedContinue reading “12 – The Failings Of Our “Justice” System”
16 – PTSD
Moving on from my previous articles, I now want to touch on mental health and what it’s like daily. One of my biggest battles is the PTSD it caused. I would often have flashbacks of the events, but I tried to brush them off without thinking anything of them. Whenever I heard any kind ofContinue reading “16 – PTSD”
18 – Social Services
In previous articles, I have spoken about my childhood and the abuse I have encountered throughout my life. Readers that have read my blog articles before will likely read bits they already knew about, but for the article to be as complete as possible it’s necessary. This article is focused on Social Services. The loopholes,Continue reading “18 – Social Services”