01 – A Bit About Me

As this is my first post, I’ve decided to write a brief article in which I can tell you a little bit about my past. The trouble started when I was just two years old. At that point, I suffered from bite marks, bruises and a broken leg. All these injuries were noted as non-accidental.

02 – How life was different

In the last article, I talked about being brought up by extended family and then it being taken away from me. In this article, I am going to address exactly what happened, how it made me feel and how it still affects me today. For eight years, the most important years of a young child’s

04 – Physical Abuse – Behind Closed Doors

The last article takes me to the age of twelve. I’m now starting to lack concentration in school and becoming a really angry child. I was in PE when I was told my foster sister had been to the school to find me. I managed to pass messages through this person who knew me from

05 – Aftermath Of Physical Abuse

Relaying from the article I posted earlier this is how that physical abuse affected me. I started to become a very angry child, didn’t want anyone close to me, because every time I got close to someone, I lost them. At the same time, I started lashing out. It was like I was being bullied

07 – Self-Harm

Trigger warning this article contains pictures and content that could cause discomfort. As I have touched upon this in previous blogs, I would like to go into more detail, especially as there’s a lot of stigma about self-harm – it is ok to not be ok. I have always controlled my eating, as far back

08b – Trapped

I woke up the next morning and had cereal for breakfast. Then I spent some time with ‘the baby’. It was strange calling the wife ‘mum’, as she was only a year older than me and she looked so young and we got on like friends. The first week was ok, Christmas day came, I

08c – From Bad To Worse

Things began to go strange at nights when ‘the boys’ were settled. ‘The man’ would instigate games, saying it was to get to know each other. Although it quickly reached the point where he would want me and ‘his wife’ to do things. Was he serious? He was married to her. I was still a

08d – And So It Begins…

The next couple of weeks were awful. He would have me sit in the solicitor’s office with him, while he was fighting to see ‘the baby’ and then, when ‘the boy’ was home, he would have us do fitness stuff. He would put three chairs next to each other in the living room, tell us

08e – No words

This has been a difficult article to relive and contains content that people may find difficult, distressing or triggering. Carrying on from the last article … I couldn’t keep up at all. We got in the car and he went to kiss me. As I turned my head, he said: “You can only do that

08f – A Few Steps Too Far

The court case continued for ‘the baby’, although one afternoon his wife phoned ‘the man’ and they planned to meet up and for his wife to stay the night. This gavep me some hope as when his wife was around he didn’t sexually touch me and we could see the baby again. It was a