In the last article, I talked about being brought up by extended family and then it being taken away from me. In this article, I am going to address exactly what happened, how it made me feel and how it still affects me today. For eight years, the most important years of a young child’sContinue reading “02 – How life was different”
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04 – Physical Abuse – Behind Closed Doors
The last article takes me to the age of twelve. I’m now starting to lack concentration in school and becoming a really angry child. I was in PE when I was told my foster sister had been to the school to find me. I managed to pass messages through this person who knew me fromContinue reading “04 – Physical Abuse – Behind Closed Doors”
05 – Aftermath Of Physical Abuse
Relaying from the article I posted earlier this is how that physical abuse affected me. I started to become a very angry child, didn’t want anyone close to me, because every time I got close to someone, I lost them. At the same time, I started lashing out. It was like I was being bulliedContinue reading “05 – Aftermath Of Physical Abuse”
06 – School Life
In my previous articles, I have touched on life at school but I wanted to go into more detail. I started school from living with my foster parents and was at a primary school, where I went into the nursery. My foster mum worked at the school, so as you can imagine the teachers hadContinue reading “06 – School Life”
07 – Self-Harm
Trigger warning this article contains pictures and content that could cause discomfort. As I have touched upon this in previous blogs, I would like to go into more detail, especially as there’s a lot of stigma about self-harm – it is ok to not be ok. I have always controlled my eating, as far backContinue reading “07 – Self-Harm”
08a – The Calm Before The Storm
To follow up on a previous article, it was close to Christmas 2006, I was now aged 17. I had college and a job and, although I was back living at my mum’s at that point, I didn’t feel wanted there because of the previous years. I used to go to my nana’s, who wasContinue reading “08a – The Calm Before The Storm”
08b – Trapped
I woke up the next morning and had cereal for breakfast. Then I spent some time with ‘the baby’. It was strange calling the wife ‘mum’, as she was only a year older than me and she looked so young and we got on like friends. The first week was ok, Christmas day came, IContinue reading “08b – Trapped”
08c – From Bad To Worse
Things began to go strange at nights when ‘the boys’ were settled. ‘The man’ would instigate games, saying it was to get to know each other. Although it quickly reached the point where he would want me and ‘his wife’ to do things. Was he serious? He was married to her. I was still aContinue reading “08c – From Bad To Worse”
08d – And So It Begins…
The next couple of weeks were awful. He would have me sit in the solicitor’s office with him, while he was fighting to see ‘the baby’ and then, when ‘the boy’ was home, he would have us do fitness stuff. He would put three chairs next to each other in the living room, tell usContinue reading “08d – And So It Begins…”
08e – No words
This has been a difficult article to relive and contains content that people may find difficult, distressing or triggering. Carrying on from the last article … I couldn’t keep up at all. We got in the car and he went to kiss me. As I turned my head, he said: “You can only do thatContinue reading “08e – No words”